New pathways

This last week has been a good one and I finally am starting to feel more relaxed. Many great things happened.

One of my concerns all the way through this fertility process has been getting through all the medical stuff with out it sending me in a tailspin down trauma lane.  My growing up experiences were so far out there (not in a good way) that I could easily be on Oprah or in a tabloid. Thanks to some great support, drugs and presents I have made it through so far.

This week a bunch of things came together that helped my brain get some new neural paths in a more positive direction for labour and birth.

• In the prenatal class the master doula came and showed some videos and added hilarious commentary. She has tons of enthusiasm, a positive attitude and a great sense of humor.
• The first couple in our prenatal class had their baby. The hospital was crazy full in September, due to the snow storm 9 months ago, and despite all the chaos and a difficult labour they are looking good.
• Our doula that is assigned to us came to our house with a kit full of things that will help with labour. She says the baby is in a good position. She spent over an hour with us.
• I had a surprise shower at work on Friday and it was so much fun. I truly love the people that I work with. My co-worker’s wife just had their baby last month and they came to the shower. That was the best part. J gave me a few tips that she learned during her 60 hours of labour!
• My care providers aim to only  do the necessary medical interventions and checks. I also have great plans for dealing with anxiety from medical things so that even if it does happen it will be ok. I can also ask for  anti-anxiety drugs if I need to have a C section.
• Tomorrow I am going to see my natropath student doctors to get some things to take during and after labour. The program I am in completely supports this.

All of this left me feeling better. I feel like my brain started to grow in a new more healthy direction. Everything is starting to fall into place. I am so happy to be in this prenatal program (Centering Pregnancy). Having group care and ongoing short prenatal classes has let me slowly start to take everything in and not be too overwhelmed. I feel more able to make other decisions related to this baby now.

Other news this week….

Zoe finally passed the car seat inspection after they redid everything we had done

Moumee actually likes the baby ergo and gives it two paws up!