I hit the wall

Dam this flu. Last night I reached the end. I went to prenatal class and checkup and collapsed. They told me, that I looked terrible and needed to rest more and I am losing weight instead of gaining. My midwife says she thinks everything is fine and I am having a baby that is the right size for me, but I should have another ultrasound to be sure.  F was still really sick and I came home and we cried in our separate rooms. Then sometime during the night my throat started to hurt ( I think from crying) and then I cried more because I thought I was getting sick.

I was supposed to go back to work today, but I emailed my supervisor and told her I am done. I am too worn out and overwhelmed. I was supposed to work this week and three days next week. I am hoping that sick days will cover this time, but either way I can’t do it anymore. Taking care of the house, F and the dog while being so scared about  mine and juniors health was too much. I also realized it will also take F a while to get better.

My throat feels better today and I feel like a weight is being lifted off my shoulders. I wasn’t planning on leaving work this early, but I feel so much better. Today is the first day that F and I are allowed to be in the same room and she is considered non-contagious. It is also the first day she has been awake.