She had a little something that really ended up not being too much, but because she is a newborn with a fever they jump fast. The long labour, my suspected infection, the meconin in the fluid and her previous respiratory infection I am sure also influenced their decision to act quickly. I still wonder if we made the right choice letting them treat her. It is just hard to do much else when there are two pediatricians saying we need to in case she is getting terribly sick and waiting to find out could have serious consequences for her. I truly hope to never go through that again. She had so many tests and antibiotics. I feel really terrible about it. It helps me to see the doctors and nurses with her and remember that they are very kind and I know they are doing their best to take care of her. I threw way our thermometers because I feel like they are tainted with bad luck. I am not using them again. We will start the new year with a new thermometer.
After being admitted Christmas night, we spent another two nights in the pediatric ward. F was with us during the day and I stayed at night. The hospital is set up for one parent to stay at night. I was proud of the fact that I spent two nights alone taking care of her. The nurses were there, but just checked on her IV’s and vitals. This ward followed our schedule more and so we got a lot more sleep than our first hospital stay. I can jump into hospital life quickly now. One of my main activities is making a lot of laundry. I don’t hesitate to throw things in the hamper and raid the supplies closets for more. I secretly enjoy that.
While we were at the hospital F slept at home for two whole nights without interruption which is great. I love that she gets more sleep because it gives her more energy during the day. She takes care of so many things for us right now. Yesterday, in my attempt to start doing more household things, I did laundry and washed my crackberry. I am now using an old cell phone. That was a very expensive load of laundry and I am in crackberry withdrawal.
On our last day there I saw the doctor again who we first met in the ER who was so confused about us and how we could be a family. While I was in the bathroom he asked F is she was the sperm donor and then asked her is she was the egg donor. He couldn’t seem to wrap his head around that fact that I had given birth. What are they teaching them in medical school? The rest of the doctors and nurses were great. Maybe that other one just took a nap during reproductive organs class.
Mostly, I am looking forward to a new month. December has worn me out. Between the two hospital stays and my mil who is visiting, we have had just over a week together just as a three of us family.
Thanks for all the love and comments and a special appreciation for our friends who have learned to use text messaging so they could stay in touch with us during our hospital stays