June 20, 2011
Guy Smiley comes to to interview Bee’s family to find out what is going on at night. Here it is their life.
He first interviews Mama.
Guy Smiley: so Mama what exactly has been going on at night lately?
Mama: Well Guy, it all started a couple months ago when we our family had a total of five illness in six weeks. Bee started waking up all night and wanting to nurse. She was feeling pretty sick and we were all tired and that made the most sense at the time. Now we are better and need to get some sleep. Also Bee is older now and doesn’t need to nurse at night anymore. I used to take care of Bee at night, but now her mom is doing that. Bee understands now about not nursing at night, but she has a whole pack of teeth coming in and that is waking her up. Last night she got up five times.
Guy Smiley: So Mom is it true that you got up five times last night?
Mom: Yes it might have been six, I can’t remember now.
Guy Smiley: How are you feeling today?
Mom: Tired, but ok.
Guy Smiley: Bee where you really up five times last night?
Guy Smiley: Do you have teeth coming in right now?
Guy Smiley: Is there anything else you want to say?
Guy Smiley: Is that your favorite word?
Well there you have it folks! This interview has been brought to you by the letter five and the word no!
June 17, 2011
I go into bee’s room at 4 45am this morning after fi had been in and out a few times because we figured she was up for the day at this point and she looks at me and asks for mom. Oy. What to make of that? After two nights f is now the nighttime parent of choice. That was quick. Now it turns out bee wasnt up for the day and is asleep in my arms. The craziness of being a parent and constantly trying to figure out what to do. Thanks for everyones support as i have been trying to figure out what to do with the four am nursing!
June 15, 2011
I am looking for peace of mind and decision. If you have any thoughts please add a comment
Bee is planning on nursing until college. She still likes a slug of milk most mornings at 4:30ish. I am thinking that she is 18 months and maybe could find something else to do at that time like sleep. This morning F went in to sooth her and explain that mama is sleeping. I laid in bed awake listening to her cry mama mama mama feeling torn and guilty. Oy. All three of us got way less sleep this way. F pointed out that it is good if Bee can also be soothed by her a night. Maybe when we travel and Bee doesn’t sleep I won’t have to do all the night-time care myself. If I keep feeding her at 4:30 will she ever stop on her own? I keep going back and forth on what to do.
June 12, 2011
Sadly it is Sunday and the weekend is over, but I tomorrow I will be starting my new three day a week work schedule. I did it! I did some experimenting in the past few months and found out what my work family balance is. I like three days at work and financially right now we can do that. However, I need to keep my job which is full-time right now. I had to do convince my supervisor and jump through a lot of HR hoops. Since this was the month to live Boldly I just went for it. Everything is approved and I am three days a week until January thanks partially to a LOA and partially due to saved vacation. That gives me six whole months. After that I will figure out something else.Right now six months seems like a heavenly long time.
June 10, 2011
I so miss being able to be sick. Everything else about how my life changed with Bee is just a different kind of fun. I don’t stay out all night playing with fire and yes there is way less time (almost none) on my own, but I don’t really miss any of that too much. I do miss being able to just be sick and not have to do anything else.
I keep dreaming of a time when I get to be sick, not a serious sickness maybe a cold or something, and get to take a lot of drugs. All the drugs I want with no concern about nursing. I miss the knock out power of nyquil. I would also like to be in a hotel the next time I am sick. Just for one night. One that is modern, simple and tasteful with a view of the ocean. I would lay in bed and watch tv and order room service and be able to sleep as much as a I want without Bee pounding on the door and yelling Mama. It is so very sweet in its own way, but sometimes sleep and rest is better. I would have a laptop and a phone but no responsibilities. None. What a peaceful time. I would also have a magical break from nursing until I am better. A break where Bee is perfectly content and my body is perfectly miraculously adjusted. The next morning I would order room service. I think eggs benny with fruit salad and a latte with freshly grated cinnamon. I am pretty sure after one whole night of rest I would feel much better and be ready to go home.
June 6, 2011
It’s family movie making time again! Password is the same as before. The first letter is a capital. Leave me a message if you need it.